The commencement of a truly phenomenal and auspicious realisation. Speaking (writing) out of pensiveness but mostly my personal experience.
Life will throw you all sorts of curve balls; you will be thrusted off balance; you will be coerced to compromise; shaken here and there and forced out of your "comfort zone." But what is resilience in such a stupefying space? Sometimes, you let go the grip and retract into a shell of loneliness because turmoil blinkers.
But what is the realisation mentioned earlier? The world is not your friend, you are a passerby. And the amount of baggage you take along decides how light you travel. Do not be bogged down, do not free rent unimportant things.
So you have the profound desire to be a "wannabe", you have struggled to be, but instead you have let yourself down, let other people down and fell far short of what you wanted to be. I mean how could you have taught that you can practically medicate yourself to be peaceful when you are still angered from stuff that hurt you, be happy facially but innately you crying out of frustration and disappointment? Never ever has escapism worked; you will still come back to fight your monsters. The earlier the better.
Stripped of all happiness, contentment and prone to all forms of instabilities you feel intimidated and bitten twice as much. But truly, it takes a deep person to know that on your own you can not make it. You need God and the spirit of God moving within you to forgive yourself, forgive those you think do not deserve it and let go that voice "hurt people hurt people." Reason, your relations are mostly affected and hurt when you are in pain; this is the second realisation.
However, on your own you cannot make it.
But the beautiful, believable and liveable text, bank on this I promise you;
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
Happy new month,
Love and Love
Light and Light